The grass always looks greener on the other side and you can spend a life time ruminating about it. Its the same idea where old people have regrets about what they didn't do, who they didn't marry, what they chose to do. I think a lot of stutters think if they didn't stutter they would be the life of the party with a huge circle of friends, a much better job, a much better girlfri-. Anyway I think even if I didn't stutter I would still be where I am because I chose to do what I chose to do regardless of the stutter (I also have autism so that may be the real issue). I am not saying I am 100% satisfied with where I am but its pointless to ponder and ruminate.