>"what do i do?" Have you tried creating a hierarchy diagram of your stuttering process (in your mind), for example [this diagram](https://drive.google.com/file/d/1ufFZYAY706mFFqrTGceVfgIj8D_HLLkW/view?usp=sharing)? If stutterers evaluate (say: associate / perceive) stuttering, then this leads to justifying: 'stop moving tongue/mouth' (that leads to a block), by blaming anxiety and a lack of confidence, i.e. 'I can't say a word' and 'fear of letters/situations'. Once you have visualized your stuttering process, you could approach your diagram by 1. choosing to move the tongue (and mouth) while experiencing anticipatory anxiety, 2. metacognitive viewpoint of anticipatory anxiety 3. or changing your relation with the anticipatory anxiety (unlike therapy where one directly changes or removes the trigger of symptoms)