Hey there. I'm 24, and I've noticeably stuttered since 2nd grade. I'm currently getting my Masters degree in Speech-Language Pathology, and I consider stuttering to be my "thing." Without doxxing myself too much, I can promise you that I trained under one of the world's foremost experts on our disorder. All of that said, I'll try to avoid slipping in Clinician mode, and try to keep this casual. Caveat: I have not graduated, and I am not licensed. I can only share what I've learned, and my own experiences with the disorder. Parts of this reply also assume you're American, so my apologies if you aren't. You have to "kill the giant." By that, I mean you have to stop being afraid of it. This, I understand, is easier said than done. I feel that the meditation could be helpful with this, especially if you focus on what is called "mindfulness." If you aren't familiar with the term, this is basically just learning to stop, recognize the thoughts and feelings in your mind and body, and letting them go, and not dwelling on them. There are guides out there that can help you more than I can in a single post here. Back to The Giant: As I'm sure you're aware, anxiety only makes us speak worse, and this includes anxiety about our own speech; it's a feedback loop that makes it harder and harder to speak. If you kill the anxiety, the "giant," by accepting your speech as what it is, and not trying to fight it, or tame it, not only will this disorder not feel as much like the Hell it sometimes can be, but the community has found that as a result, you become more fluent naturally, without direct "fluency" work. Don't take this to mean that if you just stop being anxious, you'll talk totally fluently. That would just be the equivalent of me saying "don't worry about it." You'll still stutter, and there are dedicated fluency techniques that can be taught in addition for when you especially need or want to be fluent. I recommend you look up your closest Fluency specialist. They'll be the ones that have "CCC-SLP, BCS-F" after their names. This stands for "Certificate of Clinical Competence, Board-Certified Specialist--Fluency Disorders," and it means that they're not only formally trained in Speech-Language Pathology, but that they've gone above and beyond to be recognized by a board of their peers as people who specialize in stuttering. These men and women often run or work at dedicated fluency clinics. In the meantime, your school speech therapist *should* be able to help you to some extent, but I can't promise that they can due to reasons I won't get into. I'd look into it either way. I hope this helps. Let me know if you have any other questions. I know how hard this can be.