I feel blessed that after a lifetime of stuttering I don’t stutter anymore. It was definitely helpful that I am a speech pathologist. I understood the dynamics of speech and the reason for my stutter. My goal was to figure out why fluent speakers don’t stutter during speech. Once I found the answer I was able to transform my brain from a stuttering brain to a fluent one. This is why I have never had a relapse. The problem I am having is that all the stories I hear from others is making me remember myself as a stutterer. At times I get very depressed thinking that I wish I could have gained this knowledge of fluency so many years ago. I wonder what I could have accomplished if I did not stutter. I spent a lot of time isolating myself so as not to stutter in front of other people. I became so ashamed and embarrassed of my stuttering. Again, I feel blessed that I am finally fluent which has been a life changing experience.