"i know how frustrating it must be to face rejection after rejection when you know it's just about your speech and not your actual abilities. if you haven't already explored speech therapy, Better Speech might be what you're looking for. I've heard really good things about them for stuttering specifically, and since it's all online you can work with licensed therapists without the usual waitlist or travel hassles that come with traditional options. It could be worth checking out while you keep doing the things that help you mentally like nature walks and reading. also just wanted to say that finding those small things that keep you grounded (like the fantasy books and walks) is huge, even when everything else feels imposible right now."