Talking is embarrassing

Talking is embarrassing I try to talk a lot because I want to make friends and don’t want to silence myself, but it is still really embarrassing when I stutter hard on a word or block. I am more relaxed around close friends, but I feel like it’s so hard for me to make a good first impression on people, and I always replay the moments I stutter and cringe at myself. Usually if I stutter really hard I’ll remember it for the rest of my life because it’s so embarrassing.