It do be like that. Find a hobby to get your mind off life. My hobby of choice is mountain biking It's rd to overthink all my previous interactions and what I should have done differently and all the opportunities I've lost from not being able to talk and how much I hate myself for having a stutter when you huralling through a forest at irresponsible speeds toward a pile of rocks of 5 feet in the air... Or just like waking, maybe running of you're feeling adventurous. Pickle ball is fun