I want a restart

I want a restart I want a restart. I'm okay with living a life in which I happen to stutter. But I've attached too many emotions to it that it seems almost impossible to unwind all those knots. it seems impossible to change my perspective. I've tried not to feel ashamed of it. I keep trying to be positive. But as I grow older my mind seems to get more complicated. there are new problems everyday. Problems are normal; but the fact that I somehow relate every single one of them to my stutter, is messed up. My family isn't exactly supportive. They dont seem to understand what goes around in my head. I keep thinking about this thing my mother and my sister told me when I was in 6th grade. They asked me to learn sign language as it would make things easier for me and them. They probably meant it as a joke. But to me, especially at that age with the puberty and shit, it scared me. I wished so too. Not now. I want a restart because I wanna tell myself that my stutter doesn't define me; that every single thing that I wanna say is important. That its okay to have a weakness, every1 has it; but what's not okay is letting it define you. I would tell myself to be strong and confident even if it's hard. Basically all the things my family could've told me but didnt cuz they were busy trying to make me feel embarrassed of my stutter and ruining my confidence. I would bring myself up in the right way.