This is EXACTLY how I feel when I get depressed about it. Pretty much word for word. Seeing other people being able to talk so effortlessly, and realizing that you're never going to be able to do that, really hurts. Fully accepting it must be really difficult. I don't know how I can just live with the fact that I'll never be able to socialize like a normal human being. Edit: Just a little side note, disclosing the fact that you stutter can be really helpful. The fact that they know that your stutter is isn't a result of shyness, nervousness, or just not being confident usually improves the conversation.