Hello Friend, Im so sorry this happened to you, I empathize a lot. I myself have been stuttering since kindergarten on and off then consistently since 5th grade. I am now turning 25 and it has not gone away. In high school one time i was cold called to read in history. I couldnt do it. I just froze up and sat at my desk and then said "can you skip me" the teacher thought i was being defiant and said read it! I just sat there quietly with my head down awkwardly while everyone watched me for about 2-3 minutes until the teacher moved on. After that class i went to my counselor and he talked with all my teachers and my mother regarding my stutter, the teacher pulled me aside and said he was very sorry and had no idea because usually i participate and am very bright etc. It is very hard being smart or even average intelligence with a stutter. I find sometimes I have to act forgetful or like I am dumber than I really am just to save face and preventing myself from creating a whole scene. Kids caught on that I wasnt the best at speaking and would try to call me to speak for popcorn readings. I surprisingly remember being miraculously fluent the couple of times this happened luckily, an act of God truly. Fast forward to college, I have only had to read one time randomly and i also spoke flawlessly somehow. it mightve been the endorphins etc. I too have also went to therapy and it helps a little but its no cure. I've done a lot of mushrooms too. I think that helps a lot but also no cure. My brain feels a lot faster and more relaxed when i speak after a macrodose for about a month. I am lucky that I dont have a very noticable stutter but words that begin with vowels (I E A U O) are my achilles heel. I have a very hard time pronouncing those. I used to have a very hard time spelling my name or phone number but slowly practicing in my room or mirror has really helped. My advice to you is that you should try to understand the things u can change, the things u cant, and have the ability to know the difference. be kind to yourself for things you cant change. but it doesnt mean give up and be complacent. Im pretty sure you know many of the techniques since you also stutter so i wont list them out. But i wish you the best of luck and im rooting for you. We're all in this together :\^) and you will find friends soon. try to look at things half full. when u find friends, they will be real friends not fake friends and you guys will have a long and deeper bond than most people experience in their life :\^) I wish you well and good luck!