>Will definitely answer your question when I find time to actually think about myself and how I was and what are the changes that happened. Please do that: every time you speak to someone, observe your thoughts (and feelings) and then ask yourself: 1. Does this thought lead an anticipation of a stutter (or does it lead to, my instinct subconsciously choosing compulsion?) 2. You said: **"I actually realized that before ninth grade, I didn't stutter at all."** Conclusion: so the thought in number #1, you didn't have before 9th grade. 3. Every time you speak, observe WHAT your compulsion is = * "Not able to initiate timely motor-execution of a planned word or phrase" * "Not moving your tongue/jaw to the next position to form a sound" * "Freezing speech muscles (namely tongue and jaw)" Whenever you observe your trigger-thought, confirm to yourself that this trigger leads to compulsion. Let me know all those thoughts that differ from 'before your 9th grade'.