Stuttering is killing me

Stuttering is killing me I speak with so much anger in me even I doesn't want that. I can’t even find the energy to open my mouth and talk. I get frustrated when the words won’t come out. I isolate myself; I’m depressed. It’s hard for me to look someone in the eye and speak when I’m stuck and nothing comes out. Looking at them and being unable to speak is mentally draining. I feel like I’m dying inside, like my soul is fading away. I’ve felt this way before with a different health issue, and it’s devastating