One must imagine Sisyphus happy. Seek the meaning in those words for yourself. In my 43 years it is the only philosophy that has truly helped me. You have an audience of one, you. I say own it, wear it with your heart on your sleeve, be open about it and educate people about it but never apologise for it. That's a bad habit. Be you and what's right will find you and not miss you because you're so busy trying to be someone you aren't. One love.