Bro, reading your comment literally felt like I wrote it myself. I also get those full speech blocks — like not even normal stammering, but complete shutdowns. My name starts with a sound that always gets me stuck too, and it kills me inside every time. I also think like you — about living alone, not marrying, not wanting to pass this “curse” to anyone else. But my biggest fear is how I’ll even survive… how I’ll get a job, earn, or even finish college. I’ve already got backlogs just because I couldn’t give vivas or speak in front of teachers. It’s not like I don’t study, it’s just the speaking part that’s destroying everything. Hearing from someone who actually understands makes me feel a bit less alone. Most people just say “relax” or “be confident,” but they don’t get that it’s way deeper than confidence — it’s like being trapped inside your own voice.