The mental stress from all the anticipatory thoughts is exhausting. Lately, I've been struggling with words as trivial as on, in, also but when I'm on my own, I speak with so much confidence and fluency. If I'm to take the public transport, I have to give directions but when I try to do it, I find myself struggling to get the words out. This is what's mainly stressing me out. I agree with you, I can speak fluently but these blocks are unavoidable and I don't know what to do with it. It has affected my confidence level too. If I hear someone saying they did something (things like phone calls, traveling alone, confrontations etc) I feel inferior and it is something that I can't control. I'm worried about traveling for the interview because where I live people (the drivers) can be rude and my mind has a dual personality thing, if I avoid something it would make me feel bad for not doing it(speaking back) or would make me want to argue which I can't with my blocks. I really have to find a way out of this. And about the interview, thank you for the kind words, I feel alright but my heart would start racing making me anxious. I've faced interviews before but this time, my mind has been rusting away I guess, making me feel extra anxious lol. Sorry about the ranting.