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Sinusoidal cycle of stammering Hi. I would like to share with you with my thoughts about my stammering. I am stammering since I remember. As every stammerer I was eager to contact with people fluently, but it is impossible due to blocks. In my teenage time I noticed that my stammering is like sinusoida. There are periods when it is really bad and I could not say any word and there are times when I nearly do not stammer. It is always divided on around 1/1,5 month period. When hard times come there are also some changes in my brain and body, it is much harder to focus and my memory is affected. Psychomotor functions are also affected somehow. My mood boosters are not working at all, small successes are not bringing any joy, I feel then as in deep depression, I don't want to talk to people, even to my family, don't want to get up from the bed. But then... Then good times kicks in and I am a pure man of success. I feel that I can do everything and nothing is impossible. As a programmer I can code some complex construction without a fuss. Stammering is almost unnoticeable. Every success creates in my mind thoughts like: "It will never come back, you got rid of this". But then... Nothing special happen and on another day everything collapses, *bad times.*.. And the circle is closed.