Hey man, I'm heading to work right now so i can't type as much as I'd like to but I just want to say you're a pretty strong individual for even still being alive after all that has happened to you over the past year such as losing your gf, friends, job, etc. Most people would consider that shitty but adding to all that the fact that you severely stutter... keep pushing, I know you got this. I don't give advice and i'm not going to start here. fuck advice, what you need is motivation. I know you can get through life and conquer stuttering or at least navigate around it. My stutter kicks my ass if i let it...it's so embarassing. I can never tell good stories or jokes...when I have people's attention, it quickly fades when i stutter on a few words or sound like a complete fucking retard trying to say a word. I fucking hate it but....stuttering has made me into a stronger individual as well. I'm stronger than other and i cherish speech more than them. It makes me appreciate life all the much more.