I can relate but these days it's more like the *sitting in a fire with no expression* meme, I've been extremely anxious, then extremely depressed and I figured if I don't care about living then this bad episode isn't that important either, the ability to ground myself in dissociation. I think there might also be an issue with word or sound planning, it's hard to organize what you want to say quickly enough before you have to say it, I mean turning thoughts into coherent words that you can actually use, can you relate? Sometimes I'm not even aware of what I'm saying, and I have to think quite a bit to make sure that I don't say jack shit while I'm distracted and fighting with my muscles, which also worsens the blocks