[Roison McManus](https://stuttertalk.com/on-the-front-lines-of-covid-19-with-roisin-mcmanus-rn/)is a NP and has been open in podcasts about some of the things she's struggled working in Healthcare. Edit: Roison specializes in ICU and end-of-life care. That alone should tell someone it's the person providing the care and not the speaker. Even there werent many before you that have gone on to do things you why couldn't yoh be the first? The big questions I have is: are you trying to work on speech or do you just throw up your hands and say "it is what it is?" I've been on both sides of that self-evaluation at different times in my life but knowing where you are will help in know where you need to go. Good luck on your travels and education!