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I just want to be normal I'm sensitive and awkward to really a bad point I care too much about people's opinion in me I know the problem but I just can't get rid of it I always try to act normal which is very obvious I guess Situations that just a normal person would just ignore I do care about it so much and spend nights thinking about it a person I waved at and maybe he saw at and didn't wave back for some reason a normal person would just say "Alr I guess let's move on and go on with my life" but am I? no I'll thinking and thinking about it over and over in uni I'm afraid asf and always taking the defensive mode over things they are tiny Thoughts and Thoughts all day 24/7 I'm just trying to understand how they see me why did they do that do they noticed that im nervous. I mean thinking helps sometimes to avoid some situations I may be not capable of handling due to my stutter. but that's too much I think stuttering has a major effect on me being nervous. It is not the only reason I assume but ofc it is the main one I have been in this sort of loop years and I still can't get out of it I mean I actually got used to it. I know that I will be nervous and I just accepted it I accepted that no matter how hard I will try to stop it I will be thinking about every bad situation (as I see it) happened that day for the next maybe week. Life is easy and nothing bad actually happens but I'm keeping myself in this torture. I know that but I really can't get out of it.