how do u get back up again after a set back?
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how do u get back up again after a set back? I've been doing things that I'd never do, things that harm your body, just to be able to speak better. I mean, I'd take stimulants which were obviously not a healthy choice. One time I started drinking black coffee on regular basis, it started causing bad side effects. And on and on, I've done things like that. I'd stick to "do whatever the F to get results.". Honestly, I'm not sure if I can relate to other stutterers completely. I mean, 4,5 years ago I slipped and hit the back of my head. Obviously that didn't improve my speech. But I guess I still can relate, because I've had this experience 21 years prior to that accident, and still had it afterwards. TLDR; Everytime I stutter now, or struggle to say a word, it kind of takes the wind out of my day. You know what I mean? It's like I'm shocked that happened everytime. Also, now I'm like "i can't read that (in class)" instead of even trying. I read some part, and then when I know I'm gonna have trouble saying a certain word, I'm gonna be pointing at it, or just will "I can't say it". Also, I sometime overdo stimulants. Like I take a little too much of it, and then have a headache. All for speech. Last year, for almost 6-8 months I was drinking Monster Energy DAILY. It really improved my mood, and made me cheerful, but not without side effects and it has tons of sugar in it. I made friends with a cute sexy girl from Thailand. I was taking Piracetam which was causing anxiety, and Monster was fixing that. I realized only after almost a year of taking it. Yeah...that was slow. But I loved it benefits, so I didn't even suspect. I thought it was the headshakes during walking. I've been wearing two magneloops, because they were helping me with anxiety, but at the same time, I think they were kinda shutting down my speech. So I kinda, made a mess of it all, but in a good cause, in a battle for improvement. So, Idk, while you can't help having some regrets, you should resist, or better refuse to spent any more minute regretting. Because, it's no use.