I'm curious... do you stutter in English AND in your own language? I have definitely felt like you. I actually have contented myself with quite a solitary life for a long time. However, now I'm traveling around the world, and experiencing a few different countries, and one thing I'm seeing is that different countries have different social dynamics. In places that have less social drama, conversations can flow more easily, because people don't uptight when they hear you stammer the first time. What helped both my stuttering and also my general outlook on life was moving to a smaller town, where I could throw open the windows and enjoy the fresh air, and go for camping and walks in the woods occasionally.