I feel you. I had been struggling like that to an extent personally. It's hard to conduct life normally that way. But honestly speaking, I am so thankful that we have all this tech too so at least some of our convos go with an excellent flow. There are a lot of things to be grateful for too. Personally, for the most of the time, I don't even care about my condition. Life goes smoothly until a social situation comes up, but that's ok. Peace + Chaos is what life is. A lot of other folks who don't stutter struggle from something else. It might not be public so we can't tell. So, I think that I should accept my struggle, embrace it and try to improvise gradually. Be grateful for the rest of the things that I don't find a problem with. I know you are so stressed and I get like that too. But it will be ok. We will definitely live our lives to our best capacity and don't underestimate your capacity by just the condition. Ironically, it's far better to stammer than speak utter bullshit. Lots of warm hugs to you and everyone out there (with stammering or not). Love you all. Drink some water and relax bro. We can also stay in touch if you wish.