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A situation where I consistently stutter and block the most like the WiFi has gone out to my brain is when there’s a problem with my food at a restaurant. Getting the worker’s attention and trying to articulate the issue of “I asked for this and it came this way” while also being polite is a nightmare scenario. I think the most common reaction I get in general is the awkward laugh which kind of makes me feel like an alien. A bartender asked me if I forgot my name once because I couldn’t get past a block and got stuck in a loop of “um…um…” which was embarrassing, but he probably thought I was just really drunk, quite ironic. My least favorite of all the reactions I get is when people finish my sentences for me. My perception of it is that they think they’re being kind by relieving me of this burden of speech, but it makes me feel like a child. It’s feels belittling and presumptuous. Personally, my stutter began as repetitions and transitioned to primarily blocks around college when I tried to mask it more. These blocks grew more intense, and sometimes it feels like my lungs are literally collapsed, like the airways to my vocal cords are being pinched shut by a vice, and the harder I try the tighter it gets. I hope some of this helps flesh out your character and that I have the opportunity to see your film!