Bro , I also stutter extremely bad. Words can't describe the feeling when you can't be social and do the stuff like anyone else does. Especially when you know you have so much potential in life but this stuttering is holding you back. Bro don't ever feel sad.. sometimes God puts us through different situations to actually test our Faith..he is the answer we need nothing else.  Are you going for speech therapy ? It can really help you if you work hard with techniques. I'm also planning on going next month.  What about neurological meds ? Go see a doctor bro. Get help. Sort it out. There's so many meds that help.  But don't give up.