this is going to lead to me losing my mind I think

this is going to lead to me losing my mind I think I’m just tired. I’m at the point in my adult life where I am tired of being looked down on and looked at like I’m slow every time I speak. Im a smart person and I can’t convey that and I never will be able to. This will never let up and out of all things I don’t know why I was cursed with something so horrible that can’t really be fixed. It truly makes me think scary thoughts about not wanting to be here anymore :/