Perhaps you should be having a one-to-one conversation with your speech therapist who organises these meetings. I'm sure the goal of the meetings is to help develop self-esteem and build confidence in social settings. If this isn't working for you, the therapist needs to know this so they can intervene and perhaps make some changes so it starts to work for you. You also sound like you are setting your expectations extremely high. I know many people who don't stutter who still live at home, don't have jobs, don't attend college and don't have a romantic life. These issues can have nothing to do with stuttering. The average median age of people leaving home in Brazil is 34 years old! That's the \*average\*. You're going through a rough patch but you're actually harder on yourself than necessary.