it has been a 'meh' recently. i just don't care anymore. i'am 20 years old , second year in university. there is a presentation in one of the subjects every student has to do it , i'am not , probably going to fail in that subject , i emailed the professor to see when he has free time to go talk to him and see what i could do. been months since the last phone call , which went so horribly bad btw , that lady kept finishing sentences for me throughout the call. i don't have friends in college , everyone thinks i'am a wierdo and when they have that first conversation with me , they keep looking at my mouth confused and that shit and they don't do it again. but i never minded that , i'm used to it. whole days pass without me having conversations with someone other than my family members. i have gotten used to it that these things doesn't bother me anymore. am just living my life alone , enjoying my study , music , movies and books , with barely anyone who notices me .. believe it or not , but i , as i am right now , find myself happy most of the time doing these things , i guess it's my nature to love being alone , and it's so freaking awesome , i guess it's my brain's way to adapt xD