Need to vent, it's so frustrating when people don't understand.

Need to vent, it's so frustrating when people don't understand. My stuttering isn't that bad the past couple months because of speech therapy, but it still fucking sucks. Social anxiety and tension fucking suck. My vocal fry is annoying at times. Trying hard to make friends just for them to ghost you later on fucking sucks the worst, because I thought I had actually made friends for the first time in college (I'm a sophomore). Spending the entire freshman year in a dorm where I felt like background noise because I had a mild stutter with lots of social anxiety and no one would take me seriously. It's so annoying. Working so hard to move past the anxiety and deal with the tension and dis-fluency, to think that I had made friends that I felt fine stuttering with and talking about it. Only to have them stop talking to me when their other friends moved back into town. I worked so hard to be calm and not nervous talking to a girl and other guys. It's so frustrating. I've been taking that frustration to study a lot this semester, but I can't get over it. I feel like no matter how hard I try I have anxiety that just turns people off. I don't want to fake stutter in public because it's fucked up my social life and my confidence. I used to be sad about it, but now I'm angry. I see people that I thought were my friends doing things without me on social media and it's like WTF did I do, besides being anxious from my stutter. Working through my stutter has been a roller coaster and I feel stuck, like I know what to do but it's not working