I know exactly how you feel and what you mean. My brother used a tonne of weed and drugs because he was depressed over his severe stutter too. It eventually killed him when he got into the harder stuff. 😔 You can do this. You have a very promising career ahead of you. Address the things that’s making your stutter worse. Get a high from succeeding in life, not from things that are counterproductive to your speech fluency and success. You’ve got this!!! Just be focused on your end goal.