I'm surrounded by people my age who aren't as mature as me and would probably never understand my struggles , maybe I will have friends as an adult If I make it to that but it's unlikely since I don't have a lot of social experience. My mom is probably the only one who understands me to a point where she would understand it's coming from a place of authenticity. Also I'm a really good liar , I pulled off some stuff I shouldn't have and judge myself for it everyday BTW: I don't really think I understood your comment , english is my second language and I'm still learning it