I feel your pain bruh. A lot of my fear and social anxiety comes from my family and how they treat me. Then they make me feel bad for getting mad and blowing up. Mainly because I don’t feel valued or HEARD MAINLY. It’s like they don’t see me as intelligent or something. Or when I’m trying to communicate with my mother, she makes these faces as if I’m bothering her or something, or sometimes she’ll get impatient. Sometimes I try not to think of it in that way, like “oh maybe she doesn’t mean to do it.” But nah…..it’s happened too many times. Or maybe when me and all my sibling and my mother have a group discussion or something, and I start to speak, I often get interrupted then they change the subject during the interruption, so then I don’t even get to say what I wanted to say. But I am the best listener. Like if someone else was to get interrupted, I would be the one to let the other person finish, then I would be like ,”now what were you saying again,” to the person that was interrupted. But they don’t seem to recognize and reciprocate that. My mother does deal with mental health issues btw so I do understand that. I’m going through a lot right now. But even outside of the family. I’ve found out that society doesn’t always treat people who stutter nicely either. Some people give you weird looks when they see you making weird faces trying to order at the counter, assume you are slow, or they’ll just avoid talking to you. I’ve had a lot of trauma from both sides of what I’ve just explained. I remember every school year we would have to stand up and introduce ourselves to everyone on the first day……I swear my heart would start pounding soooo hard. Then I would stutter a little. But I find it weird that I stutter around my family more though. Like sometimes people are like,”really, I couldn’t even tell you had a stutter.” I’ve heard that soo many times when I’ve told people I have a speech impediment. So if someone can explain that it would be nice✊🏽. But everything I’ve been through in my life gave me this Hyper vigilance and anxiety to everything socially. And it led me to understand and want to learn more about psychology. Like I understand my own family more than they understand themselves. So with the experience of me stuttering in front of my mother and how outside people treated me, I just naturally became an introvert. In school I would try to hide my stutter, hid it so well I guess that’s how people couldn’t tell. But it would slip occasionally, then my anxiety would skyrocket mid conversation, but whole time they probably didn’t notice it or didn’t care. But it’s soo hard not to by hyper aware of other peoples reactions to when I do. Now I’m dealing with depression and anxiety still. And it led me to not knowing my identity,or having self worth. As much as I know human psychology…..ikr. But even with me KNOWING all these things in a very logical and intellectual way, i still find it hard to deal with. I recently learned that when someone is dealing with anxiety, it’s like the brain is constantly looking for those things, and it just further reinforces these beliefs, further causing it. I’m learning yall🤦🏽…. I’m trying to just letting go and not caring and not trying to hide my stutter and let people hear it. Sorry if I just yapped btw😂