Thank you for replying and sharing this gives me hope I am I am scared what will be at the other end of this what I am blocking out I am lucky they I have an occupational therapy support worker and he will help me as much as he can. He has already proved that by doing alot in the short period I had him a month found stuff on my files no one told me, setting up support groups, helping me with getting out the house ect. When he asked more deeper questions of what I need help with I just broke there and then I couldn't say and I hate it cause he is a person that gets stuff done and scared that I will never be able to talk about it and not that what's behind the stutter that I have clearly buried and forgot about for a reason.