im avoiding my college interview due to my stutter

im avoiding my college interview due to my stutter hello. not sure if anyone remembers but a few months ago i posted here asking what i should do about my college interview. i did some practice etc, and felt slightly more confident about it all. but as the big day drew close, my anxiety just shot up. i ended up getting an email the day before the interview, and it was my tutor telling me she had to cancel it. i cant lie, 80% of me let out a HUGE sigh of relief. that was shortlived though as in the same email she said she wanted to discuss rearranging it. its been 4 days since she emailed me and i havent said a word back. my mum and a few friends have asked about my interview, and i just said "i dont know im waiting for them to give me another date" but without my input, that day wont come. as much as i really really really dont want to go thru with the interview, ill have to at some point. part of me is so fucking happy it got cancelled but part of me just wants the process to be done with so i can stop worrying about it. i just cant bring myself to actually do the interview. i know roughly what they'll ask and i pretty much know what im gonna say, but i know that the second i sit down and begin the conversation, ill freeze up and embarrass myself. my heartrate shoots up and i start sweating even when i THINK about myself being in the interview. can someone give me some advice or something? thank you