Oh man I feel you. I'm an 18 yo drug addict and I feel like I'm wasting my teenage times. Sober from opioids for over a year, I do other downers tho so still not fully sober and probably never will be. I've had girls tell me that I'm pretty but then they see that I'm insecure and they cut me off. As I'm writing this, I'm on valium (only escape from life) and I'm going to my therapist soon. I really fear how my life is going to look like. Stay strong brotha.