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Advice? Sorry if this is a little long, I just wanted to provide some context. Towards the last couple years of Primary School and throughout High School, I've had a stutter. This was especially bad near the end of Primary School and beginning of High School, where I barely had any friends, presumably due to my stutter. I do feel that my stutter has gotten alot better now, as I now have a group of friends who probably notice my stutter sometimes (it's not especially severe, but it becomes more apparent under stressful situations and on certain vowels) but I haven't actually told them outright before. Back to my point, all this time I've had memories of 4th grade where I could give speeches perfectly fluently, and doing plays etc in school where I would hold relatively prominent roles that involve speaking. Sometimes when I wondered how my stutter came along, I put it down to it existing because I 'think it exists', if that makes sense (I'm a very self-conscious person, my mind always overthinks alot of things) and the reason I didn't stutter back then was because I was more care-free and never really thought in-depth about my speech. As I was going through my Dad's computer for exam revision, I found a document pertaining to my speech therapy reports, which I assumed to be in more recent years (I have gone to speech therapy a couple times), but then I looked at the date - the year I was in 4th grade. Curiosity piqued, I read the file, and it was a speech assessment of me, describing how I had a mild stutter and that I appeared to not notice it nor let me hinder social interactions. This kinda shocked me, as this renders my theory on it being a purely psychological thing obsolete, so now I'm at a loss to describe why I still stutter. I'm not expecting some PhD redditor to give me the answer I've been looking for (and thought I had) for a while now, but some outside input would be nice. TL;DR - I thought the cause of my stutter was purely psychological, but it turns out that's not the case. Anyone know why I still stutter? Thanks for reading