I know the feeling. I haven't had a sick day in work for 6 years because even when I'm lying in bed thinking I'm going to die, I'd rather drag myself into work and do manual labour than pick up the phone and speak to my manager. He's cool and wouldn't be phased but the thought of just using the phone is enough to put me through it. The past couple of months my stammer has gotten a lot worse. It used to not bother me but now it does, every single day. Don't sweat it though, OP, people do stupider things all the time