My only real thought when it comes to suicide: It's better to live for one more second than to die right now. Anyway, I've developed some shortcuts and quick fixes (taking quick breaths in immediately before speaking), but the most effective thing I've ever heard, whether it be on this subreddit or elsewhere, is this: Just stop giving a fuck. You say you're 18, and if you're in high school, rest assured that college WILL be better. It certainly is for me. People really don't care, or at least not enough to make fun of you for it or look down on you or anything. It can be hard to "stop caring", and it doesn't happen overnight, but it DOES get better. "You will become way less concerned with what other people think of you when you realize how seldom they do." -David Foster Wallace Then again, he was a stutterer who killed himself, so whatever.