Finding a job

Finding a job I am currently an engineering student,I took an academic leave last month due to the huge fee arrears that had piled over time and now things seems very bad.I have been looking for jobs to cater for my bills and probably my fee but after I present myself to the offices,they generally mean to say"we need someone who is well spoken" They equate competence to fluency.It's really embarrassing. I am just sleeping all day feeling torn, things falling apart but I just have to stare coldly.Rush of suicidal thoughts but sleep helps a little,I fear not for long.I even wish I could get an online gig/task to keep me occupied but my location blows it off.