postr/StutterApril 25, 2016

Hello, I stutter and I believe it is effecting my professional and family life.

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Hello, I stutter and I believe it is effecting my professional and family life. Hello, all. I am really glad I found this subreddit. My stuttering has varying levels of intensity depending on the situation. Funny enough, my stutter is minimal or completely non existent when I am drunk. My stutter can be as bad as having to completely stop talking and regroup my thoughts. It really depends. The bright side is, my stuttering has vastly improved since I was a young child. The bullying I received as a kid still effects me to this day. I have dealt with my different insecurities, to some varying levels of success, but stuttering has been a constant bitch to overcome. A few things have made me extra anxious about it recently. The first, and less important, is my looming career. I am currently enrolled in college for my B.S in Accounting. I am getting closer to completion and have explored various job postings to just preview the kinds of things I need to be truly successful as a future CPA. You probably know what's coming next. I see this in EVERY SINGLE JOB POSTING. MUST HAVE EXCEPTIONAL COMMUNICATION SKILLS. Fuck..me... I feel like when I get on a roll I speak pretty fluently. I tend to not enunciate my words which makes it hard, sometimes, for people to understand me. This, of course, just adds to the stuttering problem. I get through a sentence with no hiccups and then have to repeat what I just said because I was mush mouthed. Anyways, got a little bit off subject. The issue of course is how I am going to overcome this in a professional setting. I don't mean to sound egotistical but I consider myself a pretty intelligent person. This, unfortunately, may not shine through much when I occasionally speak. That's one major current issue, the next hits me a lot harder. My son is stuttering, sometimes pretty bad. He is only 2 1/2 years old and I know it's too early to assume he'll carry it over into adolescence and adulthood like me but the worry is still there. My daughter Serenity, who's nearly 7 and has a mouth that moves like the Flash, stuttered briefly around that age and has not stuttered since. Thank god. It's hard because I feel like the blame falls on me. Him hearing his dad stumble all over his words, makes me feel like it may have a lasting effect on him. I may be overly dramatic, but I remember what it was like growing up. The shit still haunts me. TL;DR: I stutter quite a bit; I fear this will have a negative effect on my future career and most importantly, I am concerned with my son's stuttering. This post wasn't really meant for anything but a greeting to you all. It felt good to just lay everything out on the table like this. I never really talk about my problem and try to avoid mentioning it at all costs. Perhaps confronting it head on will help me deal with this problem. Thanks for taking the time to read all that, lol.

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Causes & VariabilitySchool & WorkParent & CaregiverEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

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Severity & FluctuationEmployment & CareerEarly Concern & OnsetParent Emotions & GuiltFrustration & AngerStigma & Bullying