You blame yourself. How long have you felt this way? I'm sorry that you have believed this for so long. How can you take responsibility for something that's not your fault? Stuttering isn't your fault. You can forgive yourself. Stuttering happens to you just like tics happen to people with tourette syndrome. I hope you know that we want the same thing, but we will only achieve it by focusing on what moves the needle. That's rigorous research. There is no scientific evidence that stuttering is "self inflicted" nor is stuttering caused by a "psychological misalignment". Your "theories" on stuttering are outdated, nor did they ever have any scientific backing. Tourette syndrome was the same. People thought it was caused by psychological abnormalities. Now, in 2025, tourette syndrome is treated by a neurologist through medication and other means. And you know what? Stuttering is heading in the same direction. We are in exciting times.