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Just Tired Every day, I find myself asking the same questions: Why am I like this? Why do I have diabetes? Why do I stutter? I can't enjoy a meal in peace. I can’t go out without anxiety — between managing my insulin and navigating my stutter, even simple things become exhausting. I live in a country where temperatures reach 50°C these days, and extreme heat like this can destroy insulin if I’m not constantly careful. That adds a whole new level of stress to daily life. Speaking isn’t effortless — it takes real energy just to form a sentence. I can’t sleep comfortably either, constantly being woken up by low blood sugar alarms and sensor alerts. I can’t even lie on my left side because of where the sensor is placed. My life feels like a constant battle. Studying is hard; it's difficult to focus when you're physically and emotionally drained. I have an exam at 8 AM, and it’s already 5:48 AM — I’ve been awake dealing with a sugar crash. Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve this — the diabetes, the stutter, the exhaustion. I don’t know. I just needed to let it out. I’m sorry if this post seems heavy or negative — but this is my reality, and tonight, it’s just too much to carry alone.