I'm sorry, what you've shared sounds really hard. Not at all okay for your supervisor to use your stutter as a reason to keep you from participating as your classmates do. You're not alone, **at all,** in your struggles to maintain techniques. This is a super common experience, and a big reason why many in the SLP world are realizing that the way therapy has been administered for decades may be harming and not helping those of us who stutter. If your speech therapist is working on techniques with you, you might want to ask about forgetting about the techniques and focusing only on the emotional component of the condition. If they're not comfortable with that, it may be good to find someone else. It can feel lonely when we see people online peddling their quick fixes to stuttering. But what's hard to detect in those videos is that people who say that they "cured" their stutter still experience the loss of control and tension that they always have, although the overt presentation of stuttering may have changed. And with that, those people who can change their overt stuttering significantly must continue to use taxing strategies all the time in order to maintain the facade of fluency. I don't think fluency is a bad thing by any means, but it doesn't seem worth it to attempt to use all of our mental/emotional resources to pretend that we don't stutter, and then in the process lose some of our ability to focus on the actual content of the conversation. I certainly do think that increasing in confidence may increase fluency in a natural way - so someone may go from stuttering much more significantly to stuttering somewhat less often simply because they removed the shame, fear, and self-stigma that they've always felt about themselves with their stuttering. But this isn't something that can be easily manufactured and may not necessarily occur for everyone. Ultimately, there are a lot of people who are able to become confident communicators even if their stuttering frequency stays pretty much the same - they stopped caring about how much they stutter by removing the shame that's been built upon it. I know that's easier said than done, and I certainly haven't arrived at that destination. But I wholeheartedly believe that you and I can be effective communicators and stutter on every word! I've stuttered my whole life and while from situation to situation my stuttering may decrease when I'm feeling more confident, I haven't seen a significant overall reduction in stuttering just because I've gotten more confident as I've aged. Although sometimes stuttering does feels like a burden to me, I view it more often as a blessing that allows me to experience empathy for the marginalized and provides me with a unique perspective. My stuttering has never been extremely frequent at baseline (people sometimes notice it, sometimes don't), so I recognize that I haven't had to face as much of the societal stigma that you have, and that can certainly create big differences between our experiences. Happy to chat more, feel free to send a DM if you'd like.