Hello! Thanks for talking to all of us here. I have learned that techniques can be used to reduce tension and help you 'stutter with ease'. I have gone to speech therapy twice, several years apart. The first was like how you are describing: trying to reduce the stuttering while battling your speech. The second taught 'stuttering modification' techniques. The goal with that approach is to allow yourself to stutter easier and with less physical aches and pains. The disfluency will come, but having ways to adjust after it can help. Hopefully you will find a way to continue speaking freely!