I'm a Christian myself even though it doesn't sound like it and I have back slid alot in my life & questioned if God cared for my suffering at all. I 100% realise that I'm a sinner headed to hell (which I don't want more suffering than I have now when I die) but I repent all the time but then loose faith & fall right back in to my human desires...I even too some supplements to make my sex drive go away but it was too uncomfortable in the long run. Men need testosterone & sex drive to feel good I learned..the problem is that Porn was my only outlet when I was a teenager up until my mid 20s. The porn distorted my idea of sex & intimacy in a sinful way ofc..as a person with a pretty hyper sex drive in my youth it was very hard for me to hold off seeing escorts until my mod 20s..idk which way to turn. Be a sexless miserable man but following God or be a Luke warm Christian that indulges in premarital sex & feels good in life but ultimately give myself ultimate suffering in the end.