Honestly don’t know what to say, you should just talk with a friend or a professional. In regards to male social hierarchies, mentality is what separates men. I’m 24, struggled with extreme stuttering, anxiety, etc. Couldn’t get a job, relationship or anything. I refuse to be a victim and a coward. Built my own business, lost weight, actively improving my stutter and getting mentally stronger. It’s only a matter of time before I’m 10x better than all of the traditional “alpha males”. Despite having a debilitating stutter, I will be one of the best in my field and become a great martial artist. And you’re not aware of time horizons. The chances of me still stuttering this bad in 5-10 years is slim. I’m putting in work every day and slowly getting better. Also if you have 7 figures, you should have all the time to work on your speech. The problem is your mentality and not seeking help. No one is hoping for your downfall, everyone here is being supportive and trying to improve their speech. You can choose to be great and continue in the face of adversity