It's nearly 12 am here now, writing this took longer than i though it would. >Too expensive. You are from america i guess? That's a real bummer, in germany that would be covered by insurance. >I did go to an interview in April but just left because it turned out to be a group interview. I couldn't handle that. Yeah, i know that problem. I got my first job in a very small company, i was alone with the interviewer. >Sure. I saw two of them last Sunday. We see each other maybe once every few weeks. They know I stutter and they don't care about it. That is good. Try to talk more to them (Skype etc.). You even could Skype with me if you need someone to talk to (i would try to make it as unawkward as possible). >My social skills rivals that of a frog. Combine no social skills with stuttering..yeah you get the picture. The only girls I talk to are in my family and medical professionals. >Everything to do with speaking makes me nervous. Whether it be using the phone, asking a teacher a question, or yeah..ordering my food at a restaurant. That really is bad. The picture i'm getting here is that your social anxiety is your biggest problem and not the fact that you stutter. >I don't know how you maintain a positive attitude. When I have a horrible speaking experience (happens quite often) I get irate and there goes all positivity..out the window. >I would say that most of my better speech days depends on my mood. I can understand that, it was the same for me. The key to your personal success and happiness is that you accept yourself and your stutter and come to peace with it. If you don't accept it, it will never get better. Before my therapy i hated myself for my stutter and often though "why am i so stupid that i can't speak fluently?". Toughs like that really bring you down. You have to accept that your stutter is a part of yourself and it makes you to who you are. You are by no means less of a person than everybody else and you never should think that. You are a wonderful human being that deserves happiness. I know it sounds cheesy as fuck, but that really is the truth. Hell, i even spent over one hour writing this comment now, because the time is worth it for you. Like i said before, the picture i am getting about you is that your main problem is social anxiety (and depression). Your stuttering most definitely caused that, but it's not was holds you back the most. I am by no means a professional and you should go to a professional psychologist as soon as you can afford it. I wish you the very best for your life and hope you can find happiness.