hey I totally relate to this. my stuttering is very severe and sometimes I think I'm bound to fail in all aspects of life, because my stuttering prevents me from expressing myself properly. a lot of people tell me to not let it discourage me and that I can lessen my stutter if I try hard enough, but in my case I haven't seen any different results. at all. even when I meditate and when I use different techniques, it still happens. and even when I am not particularly nervous or worrisome, it still occurs. trust me I know what you're going through. my only advice is to not use drugs as a coping mechanism though. yeah it'll numb the pain but you shouldn't run away from your feelings. usually I cry, lay down and listen to music when I feel hopeless. somehow it makes me feel better afterwards. the best thing to do is forget about it, think of stuff that makes you happy and occupy your mind with hobbies. the truth is that stuttering is a lifelong thing. and it fucking sucks to accept that. every day I wonder how I will obtain a job (job interviews will be impossible, I take more than one minute to say like four-five words) Idk I think my life has been a disaster in terms of verbal communication. but that's how it is for us. try your best to keep moving along!