commentr/StutterAugust 25, 2016

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Yup, I've been stuttering since I was 5. My mom had a recording of me and yeah, definitely stuttered way back when. My dad stutters too so i'm 99 percent sure it's hereditary. i was put into speech therapy since i was 6-7 years old. The speech therapist thought it was a good idea to make me host the "morning show" where kids would read off what was for lunch, activities for that day - all broadcast on live T.V. Probably the most traumatizing time i've ever had, along with being put on the spot reading out loud in classes. Then in my teens, early 20's, i started messing around with prescription drugs, namely benzos, which i found completely eradicated my stutter. Armed with this newfound ability to finally say what i was thinking without issue, i started abusing it in classes where like public speaking (required pre-req for college) and other courses where i had to work with other students. i am 35 now and my stutter is a lot better. A lot of techniques that my speech therapist taught me kind of work still to this day. (speaking quietly, then gradually raising the volume of my voice, things like that) But i had a breakthrough of sorts when it dawned on me that i needed some way to just calm my nerves, so i started practicing yoga and boy, it taught me how to relax, and most importantly, how to BREATHE smoothly as to aid myself in pronouncing certain vowels and consonants. Now, i still stutter but i now know that my trigger is being nervous. When i feel nervous, i try to calm myself first before attempting to speak.

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Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityCoping & AdvocacyMeds & Substances

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Feared Words & NamesGenetic & Family FactorsStress & Fight/FlightMindfulness & BreathingHelpful Med OutcomesSide Effects & Risks

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benzodiazepines_anxiolytics