Definitely. It almost certainly is. I’m ashamed that I’ve been unable to quit. I can’t turn off my constant rumination without weed, exercise, or studying and one can’t study or exercise while trying to fall asleep. The last few years have been a cycle of “fuck it, I’ll just smoke” and “it’s only been 24hr yet I feel intensely depressed and suicidal, might as well smoke.” It feels totally pathetic. I don’t have the resources to go to rehab.